So, I've been struggling the last month. It's been almost a year since I tested the query waters and I need to jump back in. It wasn't all that bad the first time.
Yeah, I didn't find the right agent, but I learned a lot from the rejections I received. I found some new crit partners and worked really hard on Sendek.
So why am I scared like its the first time again?
What if it's not?
What if I never find that agent and get published traditionally?
That's still my dream, but as time marches forward the publishing industry is changing and small publishers look better and better. Even indie publishing is losing the bad rep it's had in the past.
Whatever comes, I need to get motivated and do SOMETHING! Want to see how my newest method of motivation took form?
This is my free proof copy from Createspace. When you win Nanowrimo you get one of these. I didn't do it last year, but this year I needed a boost. I needed to see my story in book form with a pretty cover and my name on it.
Part of me thought, "This might be it. The only way it will ever happen."
So I did it. Part of me thought it would be enough, you know? Then I could move on with my life.
Be normal again.
Concentrate on being a better mom, wife and friend.
It came in the mail yesterday and I carried it around with me everywhere.
- I flipped to my favorite scenes and read.
- I circled mistakes and verb tense changes that popped out at me.
- I drew squiggly lines to move phrases around.
- I marked out other words I didn't need.
- I showed it to anyone that stopped by my house.
How can I let them down and give up now? They might not believe me when it really happens, but how can I not keep trying?
Yesterday I started researching agents again. I've pulled out my query letter and synopsis.
It's time to get serious again.
What do you do to pick yourself up and get motivated again? What lengths are you willing to go to?