Wednesday, August 29, 2012

I've Fallen and I Can't Get Up

My reader is broken.

Not my Kindle Fire.

Me.

My inner reader. The one I thought I had fixed with a few really good reads this year. I miss being able to pick up any book and enjoy it. I was never so picky before I became a writer.

Do you think it's because its easier to publish on your own now, so there's more lack luster books. Or do you think its because now I see the things that I'm working so hard to avoid in my own work?

For instance...I just finished a book that was okay. It would probably fall into the borderline smutty paranormal novel. It had some fine moments and a decent although predictable storyline. I mean, seriously, by the second chapter I knew the love interest would turn out to have a hidden heritage that would make him compatible with the woman he's fallen in love with.

I don't have a problem with that. There were some surprises to make up for the obvious plot lines. What really bugged me was the ending. The guy rambled on for what felt like the whole last chapter apologizing for yelling at her and being rough with her. She forgave him 4 or 5 times I think. Then it was over. The End.

Not satisfying.

At all.

Granted there is another book after this one, and there were other real life influences that already had me agitated. I've been stressed and tired and after losing myself in a moderately good read, it let me down in the end.

I know its subjective, but now I'm doubly worried about my ending. It has to be satisfying. I don't want someone to finish my novel and be disappointed.

Yeah, yeah. I know. It's the same self image issue I've always had. Even though I tell myself it is not my job to make everyone happy, I want to make everyone happy.

*sigh*

I need some good reads with satisfying endings to help me pick myself up. What do you suggest and why?