Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Insecure Writer's Here I Come!

Today is a busy day! If you're looking for my:
No Kiss Blogfest entry, click HERE.
Cover Reveal for The Charge is HERE.

Most of you are well aware of Alex's great idea called IWSG (see above). December pushed me to the point where I really needed to join up, so here I am. For those of you who haven't seen this monthly meme around the blogs, here's a quick run down.

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

So what pushed me over the edge? Oh, I don't know, maybe it's just that...

I'm a neurotic emotional GIRL???

Let's see, over a two week period in December I rode some serious roller coaster of emotions.
  • Christmas and all that comes with it (I HATE shopping, and yeah I know that makes me a disgrace to my sex.) :) and :(
  • I got the perfect present--a CELLO! :D
  • I batted 0-3 on gifts for hubby. They've all been returned and swapped out now. :(
  • I got my e-galleys. :D
  • I gained 5lbs. :(
  • The Magic Wakes lost 8,000 words (this sent me into a battle with myself like no other. I saw it as, "My writing is still crap! If she had to take out 8K then it was really bad.") :(
  • But reading the whole book and seeing how close we are getting to the release also made me :)
  • My kids were home all day and that means the loss of peace and quiet even when they are being good. :) and :(
  • My hubby told me that every time I talk about my book he gets angry. So, he basically hates/resents my life long dream.  :(
  • Barnes and Nobles didn't say no to my inquiry about having a book release there. They haven't said yes yet either, but I'll take what I can at the moment. :)
  • Hubby and I had a good talk and he gave me a set budget to spend on marketing and purchase of books for a fair I plan to attend in May. :)
  • I bought 2000 bookmarks! :) 
  • I bet I bought too many bookmarks. :(
  • I signed up to run a 1/2 marathon in April :) and :(
And then there is the normal--please tell me this is normal--fear of writing the next book in the series. Part of me really wants to dig in and knock this baby out. If I can shake all my recent insecurities and what I learned from book 1, I can make this one even better, right? 

But what if no one likes the first one? Then all the work on book 2 would be a waste of time. 

Or worse, what if Talia and Landry decide not to share any more of their story with me. I've planned out 4 books, but we all know how sometimes characters don't cooperate. 

Mostly I'm just a nervous wreck because in a month and a half my book will be out in the world. Although I wrote for me, now I'm scared I'm going to disappoint my friends and family. 

Do you think serenity yoga would help?