Wednesday, February 6, 2019

IWSG February Breakdown

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

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The awesome co-hosts for the February 6th posting of the IWSG are: Raimey Gallant, Natalie Aguirre, CV Grehan, and Michelle Wallace.

*sigh* I should apologize in advance for the extremely negative post to follow. There comes a point when you just can't pretend it's all sunshine and rainbows. Originally I hoped to post a lovely little "here's what I wish for you this month" kind of post. However, I've been an emotional child for the last two months. Angry, throwing temper tantrums. I want to scream, "I'm done!"

But I can't.

Too much of my heart and soul is wrapped up in writing. In these silly stories I want to share. The rub is I can't even give them away for free. Not the sci-fi anyway. I've tried for two months. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Booksprout. I only gave away two copies of the newest YA space opera. Out of curiosity, I posted my romance on Booksprout as well. I didn't share what I'd done anywhere. I gave away ten copies the first day with no effort on my part.

It shouldn't frustrate me. I should be happy something is reaching its audience, but why can't I figure out how to reach the other group? It's been ten years of thinking about it. And that audience is basically me! Where would I go to find my book?

The library, because I'm cheap.

Been there, tried that. They sold my books in the "Friends of the Library Sale" for $0.50 each after I had to buy them from my publisher for $10 a piece.

I'm tired of banging my head against the wall doing this on my own. Even when I had a publisher I had to do it on my own. But I can't pay someone else to do it.

The smart side of me says write romance for a year. Publish two or three of them and get some money coming in with little to no effort. But the childish side of me wants to scream that's not fair.

The worst part is all the anger makes it impossible to write romance. Just not feeling it, you know? I've also been hiding at home because I'm not a very good friend to be around right now. I hate that. I miss my friends. (Since drafting this I'm wondering if I'm having a midlife crisis or starting menopause. Could be either or both. Heaven help my family!)

I'll get over it eventually. The good thing is despite all my frustrations, I'm still listening to my favorite podcasts and taking free webinars on how to do this marketing thing. I want to quit, but I don't know how to really give up. That means there's still hope, right?

February 6 question - Besides writing what other creative outlets do you have?

I'd like to say photography, but I only have my phone. No fancy camera. Here's some pictures I'm proud of though. I've decided I live in one of the most beautiful places on earth. It's good for my heart and soul.

Taken through a peep-hole cause I'm author creepy like that. LOL

And cooking and baking. Most recently I've been trying out all kinds of gluten-free cookie recipes since I've slowly been cutting gluten out of my diet. It's given me a lot more energy and less stomach issues, but man I miss cookies! This weekend I found the following online recipe and my family loved it. The best chewy gluten-free chocolate chip cookies from My Gluten-free Kitchen's website.

Here are some cakes I made for a party in December. The white one was a Blue Velvet cake, there's a chocolate mint, gingerbread with caramel cream cheese frosting, and a gluten-free brownie with raspberry mousse. All were delicious!

If you stuck this post out to the end, you deserve a cookie. I promise to get my act together and be more positive next month.

Do you ever get tired of trying to put on the "good face" because that's what we're supposed to do? Or simply frustrated with things not going like you want them to?